C-H-R-Y-Salis

This past weekend I went on something called Chrysalis. It's a retreat weekend put on by The Upper Room. If you ever get the chance to go on it or the Walk To Emmaus (adult version), DO IT. As much as I hate sounding cliche, it will change your life. I've always struggled with allowing myself to believe that I am loved by God and others. The Lord used Chrysalis to remove that from my life. For the first time in years, I am actually becoming okay with the idea of people loving me. A quote from one of the speakers has been stuck in my mind for the last couple of days. He said, "There is always more grace than there is sin." I've spent the last couple of years convincing myself that I was too much of a sinner for God to even care about me, but I am now left without an argument. The love of Christ is transforming, I finally understand that. I watched long-standing grudges melt away and walls around countless hearts crumble to ground this weekend. I also realized just how blessed I am to have the mentors in my life that I do. God's plan is so beautiful and mysterious, it's incredible. I met some fantastic young ladies who I know have got my back and am praying for me. If there is anything I can still bring myself to doubt, it is that anyone who attends a Chrysalis weekend will be disappointed. My thoughts are still swimming around, so when they make it to shore I'll write a little more. Ta ta for now. Fly with Christ.